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Natasha Romanoff ([personal profile] widows_kiss) wrote2019-09-23 08:32 am
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[personal profile] notsoangry 2019-10-22 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
[For the first time in a long time he wants to try. It might stall a few times, if only for his hang-ups and anxieties, but if she is willing to be patient ... it could happen. He also can't deny that knowing there is someone he and the Hulk can trust to be with will be a giant relief when it comes to this place and its control over people. If she wants him the way she seems to, if she can accept him for who and what he is, he'll have a refuge to come to, a safe place and a welcoming embrace. He feels hope. Also, well, excitement and desire and a touch of giddiness.

He loves her laugh and the soft intimacy of their little touches. He breathes in her air and starts trailing kisses on her cheek and draw, finding contentment in this bit of freedom. Bruce doesn't know how much he'll be allowed, but this is a request for it. One arm stays around her while the other moves up her back and through her hair. She's so close. He could see every eyelash if he looked closely enough.

He raises an eyebrow at her, surprised she didn't know that moment between them was seared onto his mind forever.]


You said I adore you, kissed me, and pushed me off a cliff. [Dryly.] Not something I'd forget. [The last thing he remembered, before coming back to himself on Sakaar.] I thought I would never get to kiss you again. I accepted I might adore you in secret from then on. [Color flushes into his face but he stays firm, close, open to her in a way he was closed before.] I know five years in the future I would feel the same. Those feelings don't go away, not for me.

[It's so focused and eternally loyal of him, but true. He still loves Betty with everything in him, albeit from a respectful distance since she moved on with her life. Just as he kept his distance from Nat.] I don't expect the same. I just never got to tell you the truth.
notsoangry: (flirting with Nat)

[personal profile] notsoangry 2019-10-28 01:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[Bruce laughs quietly, shaking his head.] Nat, you could have stabbed me in the heart, and I'd still remember the kiss first and foremost. [It was the only one he thought he'd ever get, and that moment of passion was something he could have lived within for eternity given the chance.

He doesn't want or need her to apologize. He agrees with her. It was the right thing to do. Running away is what he does best and it was his instinct, but he was reverting to his old self, not sticking with his personal growth since joining the Avengers. It did come at a high personal cost. The Hulk took over for years because of it, but he still would not put that on her shoulders.

Despite the kissing and their closeness, he still is surprised when she says it is mutual. He knows the affection is mutual, that she still wants him for some reason, she's been clear about that. But the depth her feelings and that it hasn't changed in all these years? It awes him. He smiles wider than usual and looks at her with all of his feelings plain on his face and gaze, but it fades as quickly as it comes.]


I'm, um, not sure ... how much I can offer yet. He's been quiet so far, but I haven't tried .... [This is a point of nerves for him. He hasn't had reason to talk about it, but it came up a few times here, with people checking in about him and the Hulk. Bruce's answer is that he doesn't know. This is the first time he wants to know, and this conversation is awkward, and a bit presumptuous, but it feels necessary too. They're adults.] I want to try, um, carefully, with your safety in mind. [He has the most beautiful woman in the world kissing him.] It might require some patience. If that's not a deal breaker? [He really hopes not.]
notsoangry: (close with nat)

[personal profile] notsoangry 2019-10-28 03:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[One of the struggles Bruce went through when this first came up between them was the reality that he wasn't sure he could even be a full partner for her. Not in the way he felt she deserved. He understands rationally that sex isn't everything, and she knew his limitations, but it still was a pain point of his. Another thing the Hulk took from him and made complicated so he couldn't have what he wanted.

He didn't realize part of that insecurity was still there until she reassured him. He takes both kisses and lets the surety she means them wash over him, pushing down his anxieties.]
I really don't deserve you. [He brushes his fingers through her hair and looks into her eyes. He is ready to stop letting anything hold him back. She can make her own decisions and she chose this.]

I don't mean to be presumptuous about sex, we're only kissing, but I don't want miscommunication to get in the middle of us again. [He kisses her softly, nuzzling her nose after.] Also, I'm not sure you know this, but you are incredibly attractive. [Teasing now; of course she knows that.] I love everything about you, but wanting you is very easy.
notsoangry: (okay i'm listening)

[personal profile] notsoangry 2019-10-28 05:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[Bruce knows how attractive people are, especially the people around him, but that doesn't mean he's attracted to them. He was aware that Natasha was pretty, but he was already in a paranoid state of being, assuming they sent her thinking he would bend easier to a pretty woman, which wasn't the case. His feelings for her came later and by the time he realized that he longed for more reasons to talk to her, she went from aesthetically appealing to stunningly beautiful in his eyes.

They are too old and too weathered to find so much giddy warmth inside of them for something new and precious, and yet here they are. Thrilled and keyed into one another as the start of something is in front of them. Bruce nods and loves how close they are, how he can feel her warmth all along the side of his body and from their stolen kisses.]


Things have changed with the Hulk. He used to overreact to a faster pulse, thinking it was always danger. I had plenty of fast pulse moments later on and he didn't react. [When Ultron first attacked them, for example, or all their other heated moments. Bruce was in more control than ever before, and it helped that the Hulk rationally understood certain people were not a danger to them.] He also likes and trusts you. It makes a difference.

[Bruce sighs.] I just ... want to believe it's possible for us. [He wants to make love to her. He wants all those intimacies that he's purposely forgotten from his time with Betty. He wants to wake up with Nat beside him and to share that shower she joked about at Clint's house.]
notsoangry: (a little unsure smile)

[personal profile] notsoangry 2019-10-28 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[That kiss definitely purges his mind of most concerns. Bruce can only return it with a soft sound that might be the verge of a moan and he is a little out of breath when she stops.]

Yeah. [He laughs.] This is good. Let's do more of this. [It's been a long time since he kissed someone with no real goal other than enjoying it, and that's something they both deserve. Bruce draws her in and puts his energy from overthinking into distracting them both for awhile.]