[Some give up, and there’s a part of Pepper, some small part, that sincerely wants to. It’s the side that doesn’t see a reason, not when she’s alone in one world and dead in another. She doesn’t want to become a monster; instead she just wants to stop for a while. To not be.
But that’s the despair she’s been trying to fight off since the start; she knows on some fundamental level that she can’t just let go or let herself fall. Her fingers tighten around Natasha’s again, Pepper silent as she listens to the other woman. It’s strange somehow, to hear the utter faith Natasha has in her, but it’s also what she needs. Pepper isn’t a trophy, or an object for others to direct to their whims. Even though Killian had infected her she would never be his, certainly not in the way he hoped for. And maybe, maybe if Extremis can truly be controlled, she can figure out how.]
I guess it’ll be easier to contact the fire spirit now. [Eferin, always elusive during Pepper’s prior stay, now might find the affinity she lacked before. She lets out a slow breath, her eyes closing for a moment before she nods to herself.] Thank you. I needed to hear that.
[Because now having been told twice that she is the one in control of her path? Pepper thinks she might be able to start believing it again.]
Re: [May 22, Night] IM3 Spoilers
But that’s the despair she’s been trying to fight off since the start; she knows on some fundamental level that she can’t just let go or let herself fall. Her fingers tighten around Natasha’s again, Pepper silent as she listens to the other woman. It’s strange somehow, to hear the utter faith Natasha has in her, but it’s also what she needs. Pepper isn’t a trophy, or an object for others to direct to their whims. Even though Killian had infected her she would never be his, certainly not in the way he hoped for. And maybe, maybe if Extremis can truly be controlled, she can figure out how.]
I guess it’ll be easier to contact the fire spirit now. [Eferin, always elusive during Pepper’s prior stay, now might find the affinity she lacked before. She lets out a slow breath, her eyes closing for a moment before she nods to herself.] Thank you. I needed to hear that.
[Because now having been told twice that she is the one in control of her path? Pepper thinks she might be able to start believing it again.]